mamma and daddo.

I walked the city of Boston today. Accidentally ended up in Charlestown (not the best area of town by far) desperately seeking a Bed Bath and Beyond that had held hostage my new dorm possessions. Terrified of looking like a tourist or a target I marched on in combat boots and black outfit determined to find our destination, and beside me my mom and dad marched on. Walking ahead to determine subway routes I pretended I knew more and that they were mere back up singers to my Diana.

After scouring a bookstore and finally tracking down a copy of Sylvia Plath's Johnny Panic and the Bible of Dreams we trekked back to the dorm and began to assemble my room. At first, I was highly sensitive about my belongings and didn't want either parents moving anything around. Without fuss or offense they dutifully hung clothes while I sorted. As clothes disappeared from huge suitcases my dad began piling my books and without hesitation I joined him. We worked alongside each other unpacking and deciding the most aesthetically pleasing placement of my rug. My mom soon sat herself on the bed playing with the fan to distort her voice as she talked into its rotating propellers.

At that moment we were goofy, and completely happy. It is a scene that doesn't flash across the family screen as often as I would like, and while watching it play out I realized just how much I love them. After a floor meeting I asked them to come back and stay with me for awhile. We popped in a season of Modern Family and ordered a pizza. Everyone else's parents have been gone five hours and mine just slipped out my door not ten minutes ago. For the first time I can ever remember, I wanted to be totally dependent on those two wonderful people who birthed and raised me. I never thought I would be the girl at college who didn't want her parents to leave but it turns out I am and surprisingly, I am perfectly content. It has been a long time since I truly needed someone, and it feels damn good.

Thanks mamma and daddo, I couldn't have done today without you. I love you.